Today, it’s been exactly one month since I moved to Oklahoma.
In Summer 2013, I began to feel restless. Not because of any situation, person, place, or thing — but because I believe God was beginning to prepare my heart for something He was about to do. It was over that time that God began to whisper to me that there was something new and different He had planned for me. Mind you, at this time, I was working at a church I thought I would be at for a long time. It was a church that has an incredibly special place in my heart. People I met there became lifelong friends.
You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
Keep in mind, God never told me anything specific. Just that there was something “different.” Did that mean I would be staying and having a different role? Leaving and working somewhere else? Going back to school? Moving? I didn’t know the answer to that.
Around the end of August, I was on the LifeChurch.tv website, for a reason I still don’t remember to this day. At some point I noticed a jobs listing page on their website, and curiosity got the better of me. And then I saw a job opening that looked perfect for me. So I panicked. I closed out of the website and went on doing whatever I was before that. A few days went by, and something nagged at me about it. So, I went back and applied for the position. Could this be “it”? Is this what God was speaking to me about? Or is it something different?
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now
If you know me, then you probably know how all of that turned out. I now work on the Creative Media team at LifeChurch.tv, and live in Edmond, Oklahoma. I can say with complete honesty that it was the best decision of my life.
I don’t know how many people will read this post, but I have a little bit of advice for whoever does: keep your hands open. It’s tempting to be afraid and tighten your fists to that gentle whisper that’s speaking to you. But when you close your hands, what you have is, well, all you have. But when you open your hands, and keep them open, God will use that incredibly. For you, it might be something different. It might be starting a new small group you know God wants you to. Or maybe to invite a friend or relative to church. Possibly, God is even telling you to stay where you are. If you’re crazy, God might even take you across the country to a new city with a new job, new church, and new people. I can guarantee that you won’t regret it.
Spirit lead me where my trust
is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
— “Oceans” by Hillsong United